“Yes”, she replied.

Suddenly, tears started streaming down my face. I turned from the monitor to look into my partner’s eyes. He was still “waiting” to see the baby. My face told the story. The ultrasonographer, hearing my crying, turned and gave me a hug and said, “I’m sorry”.

One moment, we were expecting parents. In another moment, we weren’t. I was surprised at the degree of sadness that came up immediately for me. It was wonderful to see that my partner could also be “real” about his sadness too and we teared up together. I feel very close to James, even more so than before.

Despite the sadness of losing our pregnancy, I did not feel sad every moment of every day. I was open to experiencing whatever feelings came and committed to being as PRESENT as possible. What I noticed was that I am able to be both sad about our loss and also grateful and joyful at the same time. There is a big difference between feeling sad and feeling depressed. The first is a temporary energy state and I notice that it ebbs and flows with what’s going on in the moment. The latter is a pervasive energy state that negatively affects your entire existence, so much so, that your entire world is painted grey.

At the same time that there was sadness with my loss, James and I were immediately drawn to all the GIFTS and SIGNS from The Universe that all was well. I feel showered with blessings, as many gifts were bestowed onto me from The Universe, as if to comfort me. I successfully manifested the rain to stop and the sun to shine three times this past week when I needed it. What a gift! The Universe sent me many new clients and patients. What a gift! James and I realized that we CAN get pregnant (James and his former wife didn’t get pregnant for almost 9 years). What a gift! Countless family and friends have offered support and prayers. What a gift!

There is no guilt, no blame, no fault finding. Just acceptance and love. What a wonderful way to experience loss. To be able to be both sad and grateful at the same time. I think they call this state, the state of GRACE. Would I have it any other way? Nope. All is as it should be.

Blessings,

Dr. Karen Kan

It is unbelievable how helpful the Mind Power Makeover tool has been. I’ve noticed that my skin and hair have changed in the three weeks I’ve been using it. My shoulder is much less painful and I have greater range of motion. Lifts seem lighter and easily for me to perform (one of our affirmations) and we are improving daily each time we skate. It is truly a gift to experience such changes!

The other important thing I am doing is practicing GRATITUDE daily. All day long, I remind myself to feel grateful – whether it be the sun shining or rain for the plants, the checks in the mail, the new patients that have come to me for help in my acupuncture practice, the wonderful supportive friends I have, or the health of my family.  I can be grateful daily for it all.

Are we guaranteed to win Adult Nationals? No, there are no guarantees. Spirit co-creates our reality with us and if it is decided that it is in our best interest to win, then we will! If there is a lesson I need to learn by not winning, then we won’t. in 2005 I had the experience in my singles skating of getting to the final round of Adult nationals only to make a mistake at the end and finished 7th. I was disappointed but it gave me the opportunity to change my mind (my opinions) about how I could win the International competition a month later. I had to let go of more judgments and opinions that no longer served me. I let go of the belief that I had to practice five hours a week to win. We had no ice in the month prior to the International Championships, so I had to travel 2 hours to the nearest rink. I had to let go of the belief that I couldn’t win with such little practice and instead create the belief that I could win because I was well-rested.

Well, it worked.

I skated the best ever (I had some help as I “discovered” Lifewave Energy Patches as well as Dr. Thompson’s Brainwave music two weeks prior to the event) and won a GOLD MEDAL. The practice of being grateful for the OPPORTUNITY to skate at the event was pivotal I’m certain.

So for this Nationals, I have my eye on the Gold Medal too. I learned that I have to intention a win in order to win. At the same time, what I want equally is to skate to the best of our abilities and to entertain the crowd and judges as much as possible….to spread LIGHT.

So if you are reading this, please help me by adding your energy to mine in wishing James and I a wonderful skating performance on April 10th! Thank you!

Blessings,

Dr. Karen

For example, if you are wanting to lose 30 pounds, it is a better practice to appreciate all the slim bodies you see in your life rather than becoming jealous or envious of them. Think to yourself, “wow, I love that person’s body! Good for him/her for keeping it in such good shape!” as opposed to a snide, “Oh, must be nice to be skinny and not have to worry about your weight!”

Let me tell some of the things I appreciate about my partner, James. I appreciate that he ALWAYS stops whatever he is doing to help me find something in the house that I’ve lost (and he enjoys it!). I appreciate how he makes my Teccino (herbal coffee) every night after dinner as my treat and how he lovingly brings it to the computer room where I’m busy at work. I appreciate how he almost always agrees to massage my sore muscles when I wake up in the morning. I appreciate how he walks in the bedroom and greats me with a kiss and hug each morning as he hears me awaken. I appreciate how he loves to chop wood and shovel snow and how I don’t have to lift a finger when it comes to heavy manual labor! I appreciate how he loves to go to personal growth seminars with me and how actively he participates in everything I love to do.

Ok, I could go on and on, but you get the picture. Here’s an idea. Make a long list of everything you appreciate in your DREAM partner-to-be!! That’ll really get the law of attraction working for you!

Love and Blessings,

Dr. Karen